I Canceled Summer

by Amber Stiles on July 4, 2012

It’s true, I bit off more than I could chew.  After Emma was born I thought I could do it all now that I was up on my feet.  I had a baby that slept and I was allowed to move around again.  Well so much for that.  About a month ago Emma hit a sleep regression.  I’m so very very tired.  So so so tired.  She’s still a super chill kiddo, but that doesn’t mean I’m well rested.  It’s calm around here, but damn I need a nap.

With Alexa in Summer camp I was really hoping that I could use the morning nap to rest myself.  Or write.  Or do something for me ALLLLLLLL me.  Ha.  Emma had other plans and wants to hang with me all morning.  It’s sweet, but kiddo please nap it up so mama can function.  K?  Thx!

Now I have Summer camp prep with Alexa in the morning (Peter does the actual drop off) then I pick her up 3.5 hours later.  I have time to clean and all that good stuff, but not that nap I keep talking about HA!  This lack of sleep is creeping into the night time routine, oh and the afternoon nap is often a joke as well.  ARGH.

Wait, this wasn’t supposed to be a story about sleep issues.

REWIND…

So yeah, I’m overwhelmed and exhausted.  I’ve basically canceled summer.
There will be no races ran.
No vacations had.
No blogging conferences attended.

All off the jam packed weekends we had planned are now free and clear.  I feel relieved.  I’m a bit disappointed in myself for not being able to bounce back as I had hoped…but I want to enjoy my time with my wee little baby and not stress that her lack of sleep is hindering MY goals.  Right now SHE is my goal, ya know?  I also want to have the energy and wherewithal to have some alone time with my bigger kiddo.

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Mindi July 4, 2012 at 3:37 pm

Your such a great mom for focusing on your babies while they are young. Summer schedules can get jam packed. we just cancelled our 12 hour road trip to visit family to stay home and enjoy time with the boys instead. No running around to see a million people in a short amount of time. It’s just too exhausting and they deserve time with us while on vacation. Will miss you at BlogHer for sure but totally understand!

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Amber Stiles July 5, 2012 at 2:03 pm

It’s crazy how busy the “easy” time of year really is. You don’t realize this as a kid, but my goodness my parents must have been crazy for signing me up for things June – August LOL!

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Carrie Anne / Little Big July 4, 2012 at 10:48 pm

You have plenty of time and there is always next summer!

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Amber Stiles July 5, 2012 at 2:05 pm

Next summer I *think* we’ll just sign up for a swim club since I’ll be able to go in the water with both girls. But then again we’re starting to plan for our wedding and we’ll have Peter’s sister’s wedding next June, so it’s already getting busy a year out. ACK! Oh boy :-)

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ilene July 5, 2012 at 2:01 pm

I would LOVE to cancel summer this year. Your post is making me feel a little less guilty about it. LOL!

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Amber Stiles July 5, 2012 at 2:07 pm

Is there anything you can drop and not feel like you’re missing out? I totally feel like I’m missing out on my own fun, but I would feel more guilty about letting my kids miss out on my time. Does that make sense?

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ilene July 5, 2012 at 2:22 pm

It makes total sense! This summer I have either had to sacrifice their fun or sacrifice mine. I don’t like having to choose! They will always take priority but I have to make sure that my inner martyr doesn’t get too ugly when this happens!

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