It’s true, I bit off more than I could chew. After Emma was born I thought I could do it all now that I was up on my feet. I had a baby that slept and I was allowed to move around again. Well so much for that. About a month ago Emma hit a sleep regression. I’m so very very tired. So so so tired. She’s still a super chill kiddo, but that doesn’t mean I’m well rested. It’s calm around here, but damn I need a nap.
With Alexa in Summer camp I was really hoping that I could use the morning nap to rest myself. Or write. Or do something for me ALLLLLLLL me. Ha. Emma had other plans and wants to hang with me all morning. It’s sweet, but kiddo please nap it up so mama can function. K? Thx!
Now I have Summer camp prep with Alexa in the morning (Peter does the actual drop off) then I pick her up 3.5 hours later. I have time to clean and all that good stuff, but not that nap I keep talking about HA! This lack of sleep is creeping into the night time routine, oh and the afternoon nap is often a joke as well. ARGH.
Wait, this wasn’t supposed to be a story about sleep issues.
So yeah, I’m overwhelmed and exhausted. I’ve basically canceled summer.
There will be no races ran.
No vacations had.
No blogging conferences attended.
All off the jam packed weekends we had planned are now free and clear. I feel relieved. I’m a bit disappointed in myself for not being able to bounce back as I had hoped…but I want to enjoy my time with my wee little baby and not stress that her lack of sleep is hindering MY goals. Right now SHE is my goal, ya know? I also want to have the energy and wherewithal to have some alone time with my bigger kiddo.