It’s over. I’m a quitter. I’m a Medifast dropout. It just wasn’t for me. That doesn’t mean I’m done trying to get back to my old self. It just means I’ll have to try a different way.
Medifast Didn’t Fit My Needs
- First, I don’t like the taste of anything other than the bars and the shakes. So basically…I felt like they were just “free” snacks. Starting the day with something sweet sets me off wrong. I need to feel like I’m starting with something healthy. It’s one of the reasons smoothies never satisfy me first thing in the morning for me.
- Second, I never felt full from any of the foods. Right now, while I’m nursing basically 24/7 still, I wake up STARVING. Yes, sure, I could eat a lean protein meal for breakfast, and I do, but I don’t need the shake too.
- Third, If I can snack on fruit what’s the point of using Medifast meals as snacks? Of course they’re low in calories and high in vitamins, but I’d rather have a bowl of strawberries than a small bar.
- Fourth, I think all the diet “chemicals” (ie: artificial sweeteners) were making me feel zappy and shaky. I’ll keep my chemicals in soda form. Pass the Coke Zero LOL.
Ok so that’s why I don’t want to be on this plan any longer. So what will I do going forward? I guess I’ll go back to just trying to eat “clean”. I’ve been feeling like a failure since I wasn’t dropping weight on the plan (my fault not its) but I was also feeling obsessive. Like I was heading towards the wrong goal.
For now I need to stop weighing myself. Stop obsessing about my current size. Stop worrying about how I look and focus on how I feel. I feel like shit lately. Even more so than before the diet. Mentally I’m torn to bits over “letting myself go”, but I also need to remember that I HAVE to stay healthy and energized to take care of two kids.
I need to get back to basics. I need to shop the perimeter of the store. I need to eat healthy whole foods. I need to SLEEP more. I need to drink more water. I need to get off my ass and work out. I need to make fitness a goal rather than weight loss. I need to focus on the positive. I need to stop hiding and start living again.